I'm hatin the distance

why is it always so complicated
why can't love or life be simple..
things r not working out between me and my bf
it just seems like i am the one always trying fighting these days
feels like he's being cold to me
i hate this situation coz i'm like okay you know what this is it -
i'm tired of sitting infront of the pc and wait for him make time
and be there for him wich he doesn't do anymore
it's just a akward silence between us there is nothing more to talk about
it thought of breakin up saying this is not meant to be
but it's been a long road .. and i dunno what to do anymore ..
i love him  i do and we've been too strong for too long
can't decide anything right now T__T --
anyways tommorow back to school >__< 3months have gone too soon
wish it could always be summer -
it's gonna be my last year of high school ...
damn .. gonna have a relaxing bath tonight -
and get things ready fo school =)

random -

i'm finnally done with cleaning the house - i did a major cleaning
and then washing clothes and now i am finnally done -
it took like hours to do all the cleaning my hands or soooo tired >__<
i can't believe my 3month summer vacation is over so soon T__T
and there's like only 4 days left till ma school starts
i'm gonna go shopping on sunday -
i actually wanted to buy my stuff earlier but yea like you see
still haven't bought them all becoz of my mom >__<
it's probb gonna be like crowded at the store's sunday --
but yea - i haven't done anything this summer >__<
and this year is graduation so exams and graduation party
much to learn and shopping for a dress n stuff >__<
i'm gonna be like very busy this year
i hate school>__< -
moms frying chicken so woohooss ^__^ --
okay i'll write soon

-- LDR --

I'm tired of waiting for u everynight

I'm tired of not being able to have you beside me

I'm tired of the distance between us

I'm tired of the tears..

I'm tired of the heartbreak's

I'm tired of feeling like i'm doing this all alone - Eventough i know i'm not alone

I hate seeing you in this position -

I hate it when you laugh and pretend that everything is ok - when ur hating the distance too

I hate to see you go -

I hate not being there for you -

I hate it all -

I'm at a point when i wanna say i can't take this anymore -

and just move on let this all go - and be another long distance relationship that didn't work out

but i can't coz even if i'm mad and tired of all this

i know that it'll just take a bigger part of me to let go

and when i let go i regret it and then we fall back to just like it was

it's like you got me addicted and i need to go to rehab but i don't want to

coz you make me better and happy but at the same time you make it difficult for me

people think they get it but they don't

it's harder then it seems

Things would be so much easier if i was there ..

you

everynight i go to bed - with the thought of us being together

everymorning when i'm walking to the busstop - 

whether it is raining - snowing - it still makes me think of you

everyday i keep daydreamin - about the day when i'll have you in my arms

every quote-every song-reminds me of you

we've come a long hard way to be where we are now..

''like you said i can see my future in your eyes''

i can see mine too.. 

there is no such thing as forever - nothing lasts forevr

but i want a lifetime with you -- 

Pictures

Pink Nails ♥

This Is Simply Cute ♥

I May Have Found this  ♥

Yes You Do ♥ And you know i love it

This Was Something I Needed ♥

This Could Be You & Me Someday .. 

Lovin Her Hair - Clothing .. Just Everything

Cute Jeans Tottally Loovee ^__^

Without you - nothing is the same

You may not be her first last or her only
she loved before she may love again
but if she loves you now what els matters?
she's not perfect - you aren't either and the
two of you may never be perfect together
but if she can make you laugh,cause you to
think twice and admit to being human and
making mistakes,hold onto her and give
her the most you can.she may not be
thinkin about you every second of the day
but she will give you a part of her that she
knows you can break (her heart)
so don't analyze and don't expect
more then she can give
smile when she makes you happy
let her know when she makes you mad
and miss her when she's not there

Love Her Shoess ^__^ 

- Random -

Good Morning or evening - ^__^ 

I am listening to James Morrison - Please Don't Stop The Rain - 

Great Singer - tottaly love his voice but ok 

back to the point i'm off to a barbecue thing with some family members

gonna spend tha night there - ( at grandma's house xD ) 

so i'll let you know how it was tommorow =)

need to go shopping >__< for school damn summer is almost over =( .. 

wich means i can't talk to ma bbe as often coz we both have school and 

 the time diff is freakin anoying - 6 hours ? i mean like come ooonnn>_<

but ok gonna post some pics i tottaly love --

enjoy them -

epik high

 Lovin this song sooo much -
Must Listen ^__^ !!


 Epik High - Pieces Of You 

- I Want to look into your eyes and hold you hand forever -

..you..

There's him amd there is you ..
Him .. i love him and i am fighting to keep things going even trough the distance
He's always been there..dispite my moodswings and complicated thought
and he wiped away my tears and pushes me to the top..even if i can't be next to him
he's the best part of my day -
he's my everything

and there is you .. i've shed so many tears for you
and you disapear and then you come..
feels like you have a part of me
we talk and i seem to get okay becoz of you
he can do that he always does but your different
it doesn't feel like love becoz it's too complicated to be love
it's just a thing .. a thing that i can't let go -

life

it's been a long long time since i have written something ..

well i just feel like writing so here it goes 

as time passes by i've understood that 

no matter how good friends you are some people will still disapoint you 

and life doesn't always go the way you want it too 

life is about making choices .. even if it was a bad or a good choice 

you made the choice so you gotta go to till the end with it 

i've thought about giving up and i've had hard times 

but you just gotta keep walkin..

so i am .. livin in a diff place with other people then ur used to has been real hard

eventough it's been 3 years it still doesn't feel home.. 

besides that having a LDR isn't easy either 

but guess that's life right?

i wish i could have done some things different 

made more people laugh then hurt them eventough i didn't want to

i would've been more confident .. 

would've enjoyed life more then now 

i still enjoy it though but just not as i used to 

you can say i am a simple person with complex thoughts 

so many things going around in my head .. 

Thinkin about him..and life and faith .. and so much more

i wish that i could just understand things more..

wishing to fly away back home .. 

get things to like they were before.. 

but guess that's not possible so i'll keep walking this road .. and see what happens ..