To rukky

well it's been a while since i started reading ur blog
i must say it is an amazing blog and the picture's u took are just breath-taking
and i read ur relationship status change on fb so i must say

i am trully really happy for u =)

i kno it's prob gonna be tough but

since it been years and you guys had
eachother no matter what maybe

this time will be fo real =)
and knowing u have been in the same situation as me
with all the LDR n stuff ..was a great help for me
so just wanted to let you know that and

Good luck dear love you
btw thought it was a sweet pic ^__^

snowing...

it's freezing outside ~ And also snowing

well my vacation started yeeeyy 14days seems so long =)

and my bday was amazing had lots of fun

i went to see a movie - karoake - and also went eating

and on the exact i was actually going to sit and talk a lil with mom have something to eat n stuff

but daddy called and we went to a korean restaurant it was my first time seeing him afta such a long time so it was great! Thanks to all the people who sent me message's and sweet comment's ^__^

me feelin like shit/inside&outside

it's been a while since i wrote something

uhm nothin new actually my life still going on

had some things to do for school uhm yeaa

my 12-days vacation is going to start from the 10th of nov

wich i am happy about finally no schoolwork or waking up in the morning

oh yeaahh bday coming up =) yaayyy 2days left

actually almost 1 day left since it's almost midnight here

i'm going out with friends watch a movie and sit a lil talk and eat n stuff

i'll post them pic's later..=)

well as for me there have been a few guys asking me out n stuff

but like i side i feel like there's still an icebox in my chest

he told me yesterday that we kept dreamin of me

and i asked him..''was it hard fo u to give up?''

he said '' yes it was in the beginning ''

and i asked some otha stuff too ..

and honestly i am not ready to just let it all go and act like what we had

was never there or that everything is okay now

it is not okay for me i thought i was but i am not

i feel like something is missing like i lost the ability to love

and i am truely dissapointed that he just gave up on me..no us

and i hate that i miss him and i hate that he always says the right things to me

i know getting back together wont change the fact that

we don't know when we'll see eachother

or the fact that it's gonna be very hard and i don't wanna keep him beside me

 knowing that this relationship is killing him..

but i'm lonely and lost without him

i just want him beside me can't i be just selfish for one time and

just tell him how i have been feeling?

knowing that i'll be putting him in a difficult situation

i feel like something is missing..

i dunno what to do..